Tapping last night
I had an interesting series of EFT rounds last night on my weight.
I couldn’t think of where to start, so I randomly opened The Only Diet There Is to see what Sondra Ray might have to suggest. I opened to a page about parental (dis)approval. So, that’s where I started:
Even though my parents disapprove of my weight…
(By the way, after the ellipses above, in EFT we add “I still deeply and completely love, accept, and forgive myself.”)
I don’t know if my parents still feel this way, but it was a place to definitely start since I know they disapproved when I was growing up. I’m sure that they were trying to do the best for me, but I felt disapproval. I started off feeling a 5-6 on this issue. And was able to tap it out to a 0.
The next round came up spontaneously:
Even though I’m afraid of what I might lose if I lose this weight…
As I moved through this issue, I could see the following things I was afraid of losing:
- sweetness
- compassion
- softness
- fear
The first three issues have been clear to me for a while. If I lose weight, I might become an edgier and more intense person. Which is really funny, but it is a perception that I have.
At first I didn’t understand why fear would be in the list until I thought about some of the activities that I was afraid of as a child that being fat kept me away from: climbing too high up in trees, playing football, etc.
To end the work, I tapped on one of the specific issues above:
Even if I lose my sweetness if I lose this weight…
That started off as a 4 and got down to a 0 in intensity after one round. I didn’t do the others, because just the realization of that seemed to move the issue in toto.
Tonight I’ll be working on a related issue: feeling alone in a crowd. And, tomorrow I will begin doing my daily EFT work in the mornings.